♔ Not good
posted on Tuesday, April 26, 2011 @ 5:27 PM | 0 comment(s) | add a comment.
Okay my feeling's not good now. I dont know why i cant be like the others? Why can i have a normal life like other teenagers are at the same age with me?I dont have a lover, i always feel lonely because i'm just alone. I have myself to be the best friend of mine. I cant tell what i think. Even i dont think too much to tell. And the things in my head are always blur. I dont want to say, although the energy in my body never goes away. I cant find the same between me and my friends.
I know that my classmates are all the coolest people. They'r funny, kind and easygoing. They treat me very well. At least it's better than the old classmates. I want to make friends with them, want to fit in and we can laugh, we can talk together for hours, so that i wont waste my time when we're still classmates. But i just cant do anything, i cant go out of my seat and come to some tables and say 'hey'. When i hear they say, i cant open my mouth because silence is the only thing i can do. I dont know what to talk and i think that they dont like me so i should keep silent. Maybe they will think i'm weird but what can i do to make everything better? CANT!!! I'll be ridiculous if i jump into there stories. Oh man, how to be love, please tell me?
I always be at home. Come back from school, sleeping, eating,blah blah. Dont go out with friends. It's hard to hate a person, but i always feel that i'm very bad and annoying. Unconfidenence makes me crazy but. I think that my friends have to suffer very much to play with me.
Everyone says that Super Sweet Sixteen. But my sixteen birthday was like hell when i'm alone in the night. No one come, i'm just lying alone in 4 walls. I just want to forget my feeling that night. I saw a birthday of a friend i dont like and she had been received too much. She has friends beside on her birthday, a lot of friends, a lot of wishes. A lot of the care. So it made me sad. And i saw a friend of mine'd written birthday wishes for our mutual friend. But on my birthday i dont receive anything from her, she even didnt remember that day i was born. So i'm disappointed. I wonder that we'r bestfriend or not.
Stop this here. I dont want to think anymore.
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